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the weather was bad and I had just bought a new shirt the day before
I did not bring a jacket, I didn't figure I needed one, suppose that was kind of dumb
cause it started raining and I caught a cold, oh it started raining and I caught a cold
couple months back was when she caught my eye
and she seemed so fucking excited all the time
i was terrified to talk to her, though didn't think she'd mind
i wanted to get to know her, and I wanted her to be mine
so I talked to her
once in a while
I sent her a message
once in a while
I liked her smile
I liked her ...style
And she moved funny
Oh those times were a river
My limp body going wherever the water went
Once in a blue moon I'd see her standing on the land
Beckoning her over, trying to get her to grab my hand and pull me out
Oh man the only thing I want is just a chance
Oh man giving up is just not my style you know and I
talked to her
told her how I felt
But now I'm regretting
My lack of detail
She liked going fast
But I'm okay with any pace
I liked how she laughed but
She wasn't into me
Noticed she was big into those dudes from those superhero movies
Well that ain't me so
Good luck with that honey
Oh man the only thing I wanted was a chance
Oh man giving up is just not my style you know but I think she'll
stop talking to me
and it's making me crazy
Oh I find her so interesting
But she ain't never listening
Oh man I really don't like superhero movies (What did he say?)
Oh man I really don't like superhero movies (What did he do?)
Oh boy I really don't like superhero movies (I believe)
Oh boy I really don't like superhero movies (In fairy tales)
And do you smell the lie in that?
Gotta be honest
I'm still hoping for you to reach out to me
Like I did to you back in that fantasy river baby grab my hand
Grab my hand, Living in a fantasy land, Still looking, I don't like where I end up
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First Person Perspective
02:24
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overall i'm uncomfortable, i could do with a little less sadness
most of all i'm not content at all, i'm told i'm doing better
what angers me the most is that there seems to be no pattern to this, i'm seriously pissed (off)
i want to get away from these uncertainties and periods of void
a whole nother person with a completely different life
i'd be some girl, in some american city, i'd have fucked up friends
and we'd be in a band
dark hair, glasses maybe, interested in deep sea creatures
wouldn't worry about morality as much as me
of course i'd face her hardships but it seems so easy now, every life far away from here, every life far from this clown
not at home in my head, the life I live's no fantasy and there's no monster hiding under my bed
is it good? is it bad? first person perspective, worst story I ever read
and recently I've been thinking about kissing everyone
never would have thought of that until it all went wrong
i've got nothing to say
i've got zero things to say
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I don't think I'm healthy
I think I need help please
I'm about to freak out
How could you be so blind?
If I mess up it's on you
I told you I'd fuck it up here I go again
I slipped on synthetic ice again
I, I am very scared
I, and I won't go nowhere
I closed my eyes but only for a little while
I closed my eyes but only for a little while
I closed my eyes long enough
I'm lost baby friends help me swim again
She stabs and she stabs and she stabs and she stabs and she
A crowd surrounds my pool they're amused I am cool I am cold I am cold
And all I want is to return home and see my sunflowers again
I want to see my wife and children before I head out again
turn it off!
you're supposed to turn it off or you won't survive
look me in the eyes, you don't want to want to die
believe me children hand in hand we march until we're old and grey
I told you I'd ruin it, and I did again
I slipped on a little blood again
I, I am very empty
I, I'm only very empty
I'm lost baby man help me walk again
She's dead in my eyes
A crowd surrounds my house they're amused I am sweating I am cold I am cold
And all I want is to return home and see my flower family again
I want to see my wives and wives before I head out again *never to return*
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4. |
Grease Soda
02:08
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after a day of pretending
after a day of trying to keep up
i like to sit down and have myself a
i'm drinking grease soda
your living room is exposed and it smells of grandma and grandpa's old shit
you try to hide it
but inside there's a lot of nothing and that nothing won't fit
don't get me wrong
i love the way my teeth fall right out of my mouth
i love the way my red skin shimmers in the sun
but what about those prices? what about them
what about those prices leads you to believe i'll get knocked out cold (forever?)
wonder what those prices think about my safety and health
i'm drinking grease soda
your basement room is exposed and it all just smells of your shit
don't try to hide it
i know inside there's a lot of room for another can full
don't worry about it too much you sick man
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5. |
By The Window
03:49
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every night i sleep under the same stars
teach me how to be a person
every night i sleep on the same dirty sheets
i don't know how to clean
and teach me how to be a person
teach me how to be a person
teach me how to be a person
teach me how to be a person
teach me how to be a persooon
teach me how to be a person
teach me how to be a friend
teach me how to be a lover
how to eat food
how to fulfill
how to feel
i wanna know if it's okay to be (me?)
i wanna know succes
i wanna know security
i want to press on and i want to improve my life
i want to mean something to someone
i want to be a better person
i used to live alone
i used to live by the window by the window
and the window watched over me
the moon was my father
i don't care if i'm dirty
i don't care if i'm clean
all i wanna know is how to dress up
how to accept
how to discover
how to scream i love you and mean it
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6. |
This Train
03:54
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train ride, am i coming or going?
i don't even mind
and that's a lie
i'm well aware of the things i'm seeing over there
and it seems unfair
just a little obsolete
this train seems kinda long
and i miss his song
whatever floats your boat
whatever keeps your mind off things
i don't really mind
long as i'm not dying at the speed of light
jeez i'm panicking,
just tell me without words what do you look like?
and it all seems a facade
chronologically messed up in the body and the head
step outside and you can embrace the sand if you want to
yeah you can wear my jacket baby, cause i'll be inside
yeah you could wear my jacket baby, if you were mine
run along the train tracks baby
come and find me if you can
i'm not wearing any clothes
there's no reason to
until you jump out and run along with it
and you'll find that there really ain't nothing like it
oh I'm well aware
this train is way too short
and i miss his horns
whatever floats your boat
and keeps your mind off things
i don't really mind
long as i'm not dying at the speed of light
i love this
until it tells me not to
cause them i wont
love it anymore
it's my inspiration
i wanna kill it
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7. |
Bass Ronald
03:34
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bass ronald i am a seer
look me in my magic eight ball eyes
i knew love
but i gave it all away
i never meant for her to stay
why don't you come and help me out little ronald?
bass ronald
I wanna to feel the sun upon my skin and when I walk I want to do it all upright and I can't win with you
ronald
I wanna feel the feelings of a proper individual who can deal and know of your existence
but I can't
you're just a ghost to me
a ghost I can dress up while she is phasing through the walls while I call her bass ronald
to you, bass ronald i owe everything
i'll follow you forever don't you know bass ronald
bass ronald
I know who you are to me, that's everything I'm not, but you're still part of me.and I cannot stop myself from loving you. you're valueable but at some point you have to let go of yourself
to you bass ronald i owe everything
i'll follow you forever
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we are just friends, just friends
out of circumstance, circumstance
play with the cards you're dealt, play with the cards you're dealt
is it wrong? (no)
dance on the floor like a madman, madmen
they came before; think i'll ditch you
how are you doing today my chum?
i don't care cause i've grown cold and
how are you doing today my pal?
i don't care man, i don't care man
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I Love My Friends
00:44
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and when the windmill comes for me
i'll take out my notebook and write down the words I
I love my friends
and it won't take too long for them to find me flying here
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10. |
Infatuation
03:56
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it feels so good to love like this again
it feels so good to love like this again
there's something sweet about it
something optimistic
there's something nice about it
something cool
i love you
i love you
i gaze upon you from afar
i see your eyes, to me they're stars
could you just stay before we start
i want to show you all my heart
i love you
i love you
we don't know eachother yet
and we don't talk, too soon for that
i want these pictures in my head
cause they are perfect and this is sad
it feels so good to love like this again
it feels so good to love like this again
infatuation
too good to be true
abandon all hope ye who enter here
infatuation
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11. |
Chocolate Milk
03:51
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chocolate milk goes bad
a horrendous smell invades my nosedrills
friendship glue
apple peelers
curtains closed
it's dark despite the daylight, sounds
can be heard
from the staircase
desperation
i remember when it was chips and water
a safe haven
now i just want to go where the heat is
masturbation
plastic surrounds me i can't tell the difference
no sensation
nothing at all it just blooms
and i'm not sure if i should be dealing with my inevitable morality at this point but it really stings. i don't want to have to die but who would?0
go faster!
i would but my feet are but stones and i'm bound by leather
be stronger!
i can't, my bones are brittle and i'm no person
get smarter!
all words pass right through my ears. such is my lack of growth
get better!
i don't know how. nothing works.
at this point I'm alone
seven ghosts come into my home
they spit water that I drown in
and I turn into a fountain
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12. |
Chlorine Hero
04:41
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best to move quick, they're following me
oh baby and they got skulls and bones for days
which is a real shame, they burrowed mine
they got me to swallow their disgusting wine
and I don't know where to start
they've been treating me so hard
and I don't know where I've been
my god, what a horrible way to win
the waters up to my knees
chlorine
filling the pool
darkened trees
baby come back to me
chlorine, chlorine
i now know not to intervene
maybe, i'll see, baby
i am running for my life
the earth turned around and i'm falling towards the sky
you know what happened
you know what caused these clouds to fill my eyes
baby i'm scared
'cause you're not here
but me and I both know you're not supposed to feel fear anyway
i am killing all my time
as everyone wanders around on a giant spiderweb
i am connected
you are connected and i'm so very aware
god damn it i'm scared
'cause you're all not here
have we figured out how not to feel fear, tell me
the waters up to my knees
chlorine
filling the pool
darkened trees
baby come back to me
chlorine, chlorine
i now know not to be obscene
maybe, i'll see, try me
Shar Shar, Shar Shar, Shar Sharp knife Shar,
Shar Shar, Shar Shar, Sharp Knife let's talk about knives
Shar Shar, Shar Shar, Shar Sharp knife Shar,
Shar Shar, Shar Shar, Sharp Knife slam it into my fist
I'm making all your idols bleed
Ooh I'm making everyone you worship bleed
Sharp knife, slam it into my fist
Ooh sharp knife, slam it into my fist
We'll merge and I'll bury all your friends in sand
We'll combine no need for hand to hand conversation
the waters up to my knees
chlorine
filling the pool
darkened trees
baby come back to me
chlorine, chlorine
i now know not to be obscene
maybe, i'll see, try me
the waters up to my knees
chlorine
filling the pool
darkened trees
baby come back to me
chlorine, chlorine
i now know not to be obscene
maybe, i'll see, baby
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i bite through the plastic
the sun hits my skin
I want to believe you
I'm tired of sin just let me meet that ghost
and let me elevate to oh so distant homes
I give shape
to my own nightmares
to escape
my own white hairs
mystery girls
strange ways of transport
distant hills
sweet conversations
I WANNA SEE MY BUS DRIVER FUCKING KILL SOMEONE X3
I WANNA SEE MY BUS DRIVER COMMIT A HIT AND RUN
and I eat souls
but then I waste them
out on the road
and yet I'm sleeping
and if I'm not alone
then how come
I'm glued to a blanket
with a cold doll at home
I WANNA SEE MY BUS DRIVER FUCKING KILL SOMEONE X3
I WANNA SEE MY BUS DRIVER COMMIT A HIT AND RUN
I WANNA GIVE MY LIFE AWAY TO CIRCUMSTANCE
CROWBAR IN HAND, STRANGERS APPROACH, THOUGH ALL THEY DO IS, CARRY ME HOME
I WANNA SEE MY BUS DRIVER FUCKING KILL SOMEONE
I WANNA SEE MY BUS DRIVER FUCKING STAB SOMEONE
I WANNA SEE MY BUS DRIVER FUCKING MURDER SOMEONE
I WANNA SEE MY BUS DRIVER COMMIT A HIT AND RUN
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14. |
I'm a Leader
03:15
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sometimes you have to sit down and take a breath
you're not as crazy as you might think, calm down a little
and often you might find yourself like this
and maybe you think that you can't change
but just give yourself a little time
might seem crazy, but it'll all end up just fine
i know you might feel guilty taking time for yourself
but sometimes doing nothing is the best thing you can do
and I love you
but I trust I won't do for too long
and I love you
and you don't love me the same but I'll celebrate anyway, I'll be fine either way
what else can you do
but trust in the saying good things come to those who wait, and I will wait but not for you
I'm a leader
I'm a leader
Salt and sirens
Salt and sirens
Perfect on the seashore
Perfect on the seashore
And the salt will taste of sugar
I love you
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